i'm FINALLY back in Singapore!

hello everyone who's reading this.

i'm NOT gonna change blog cos guess wat??? the tagboard's WORKING!! finally...after like 2 months. haha.

i touched down in Singapore on d 7th dec.
sat on SQ flight for like 10 hrs...thank goodness i had an aisle seat plus nxt to d toilet! haha..only inconvenience was that this angmoh couple kept going to d toilet so i had to keep crossing my legs on d arm rest n try to balance a cup of water on my lap...its quite hard. haha.

all in all i was DAMN HAPPY to be home lah...
it was so comforting to see d twinkling lights of S'pore as d plane touched down. :)

i haf almost been here for a month. currently staying in simei wif my aunt.
however things in S'pore were not wat i expected it to be.
like for d first few weeks i couldn't use d com...don't ask me why. some things are better left unexplained. things were so restrictive living in other pple's home that i finally realised my mum's words that there is no place like home. She also told me s'pore won't b d same cos we won't haf our own home anymore. At first i was like yeahyeah..like it matters...but now i really understand wat that meant.

anyway i haf been meeting up wif frens since i came back. its been fun on a whole but i sense that i've drifted away frm some of them...most coming frm cj. like u noe their not opening up to u..n there r times where its rather awkward. its really sad n disappointing. ironically when it comes to my mg frens we can juz talk n pick up where we left off more than a year ago. i thought it would be d other way around. i finally realised that i made cj alot bigger n better in my mind back in nz then it actually is. still when i see a cjian on d streets i get really excited...dunno why...i'm so weird. n everytime i see jc pple i get so nostalgic..cos jc was d most fun part of my life even though it was juz for a yr. wish i could go back to it, to that EXACT time but that's impossible. pple change n pple move on.

overall coming back to sg was not wat i expected..it was not as grand n exciting as i thought it would be.
BUT. i don't Miss nz AT ALL so at least that's a good thing.

will be going back to nz on d 31st jan.
i've already decided that i'm going to d university of canterbury, christchurch, nz to do bachelors in speech n language therapy (BSLT). its free entry in d 1st year but only 30 pple get in, into d 2nd yr to continue d degree. its a big risk i'm taking but i believe that that's where i ought to go. if God willing then i'll get into d 2nd yr.
i'm gonna be all alone wif out my parnts...so scary right. sigh. i'll probably regret it at first i noe it!...but i think i need to go there to grow up into a real adult. cos only grown ups take adults seriously...not teens nor kids.

uni will commence on d 18th feb but i'll prob haf to go down earlier to get used to hall life.
this is like d biggest decision i've made so far...really hope it turns out fine..